Peach

all you know
9.10.2

again and again its all the same
the weed the pills the pain
beuty is an illusion
illusion to love
illusion to hate
ive come to hate my body
for it is all that requires in this world
we have come separated from our souls
our souls are lost
lost and delirious
dillusional
we think we know
but we have no idea
we always want to know why
not just enjoy it in its power
were filthy little creatures
killing raping stealing
the drugs are everywhere
you cant escape them
cuz they are you
they are all you know

close
9.10.2

the lonley shadow
the breeze
i go by unnoticed, unspoken for
unspoken too
the gentle giant
nobody notices
life has become a meaningless waste
unperfect, unholy
unbeautiful
disgusted by my reflection
it doesnt matter
to them i am unapproachable
im just the girl thats always stoned
i need the weed the pills the powder
the needle for my pain
im only happy when it rains
i only listen to sad sad songs
masochistic i prefer to watch myself suffer
odd, dysfunctional
my life has been an unbearable choking fog
i cant breath
running out of oxygen
hold me now
m close

black
9.24.2

the world is black
black like my soul
black like my heart
instant gratification
is all i need
obsessive compulsive
like any addict
watch the blood
cut myself
to know im real
feel the pain
that pharasaic
everythings black
and shades of grey
the blood
the red
is all i see
puncture the skin
to see the color
anything other than the bleak black colors of my soul
what is color anyway
something our eyes show us to decieve us
to believe theres something other than black
other than the blood
other than the coldness of my soul
frozen in my world
now im nothing

unleash
10.9.2

i have come detached from the physical world
nothing can hurt me here
pain resentment-they dont exist here
unleash the darkness
unleash the world other than the world we know
nothing to believe in
nothing is sacred
nothing is real
only the blackness
the colourless, temperatureless, emotionless world of death inside
only the dead allow
i am death
now i am safe
no beauty to care about
all aspects of the physical world
come with me-ill set u free
come into the world that real

forget
10.24.2
hot coals of hell
burning at our souls
fuming flame
its all the same
were in hell now
the emptyness
colorless
soundless
dreamless
no one notices
nobody cares
the world is comming to an end
and all we can do is use
all we use is a needle for our pain
a line to forget the future
a pill to forget the past
a toke to disconnect from the present
speed to make the day go by faster
tears in the morning
for yet another day
you mutilate your skin
to show the pain within
you sleep with them
before you get too close
to hide what you feel inside
to get just one step closer
little too much
but thats not enough
cuz it not gonna make you disappear

death
9.24.2

tell me how does it feel for you
to treat me like im just a friend
when we both know how i really feel
tell me how does it feel
to act like you dont know im high
that im not happy
life is bad
death is better
been stuck in death
so i cant die
how can you die
when your already dead
guess wut im dead
nothing you do can hurt me anymore
im dead from the world
empty pharisee
till i cant feel anymore
the world is nothing
im not even real
im high
disconnecting fromt he physical world
till i cant breath no more
death doent breath
i am death

rain
10.2.2

lies, ignorance, insomnia
smoke alotta weed
to see-even for a second
something other than black
other than the despair in my soul
to see if im real
the powder on the table
give in to it
it looks so tempting
itll help you see
the reality of life today
reality bites
i am death
nothing more for me
i see the end is near
end for everyone else
theres nothing left for me
just a blink in reality
cum with me to see my pain
come back to me to set me free
a needle for my pain
in the end its all the same
i only listen to sad songs
im only happy when it rains

Today
8.3.2.

The pain aches inside me with every aspect of my character
I know this is not sane
I know this is not me
But I can taste it
I can feel it
My pain is never ending
My wrath is even longer
The drugs will always be here
We have to cum somehow
Im sorry father for I have sinned
I have sold my soul
I have done wrong
I have stolen
A part of me has been killed
Happiness is no longer with me
I can only stay awake
I can only sleep to make it go by faster
Time is not my friend
Time is never done
Time is forever
Life is forever
Until death
Then we are free
Back into the cycle again
Nothing stops
For there is no tomorrow
Tomorrow ends up always being today
Yesterday is always gone
Today is so lonely
Without you